i can't say this is a good year. i have had a lot of things happening this year. experienced many new things (both good and bad). so many things that have happened that i don't feel like to list them all. suffice to say that recent events have left me  feeling kind of sad (almost depressed). i wish i have more good news to report. maybe i am just looking at this past months with tinted glasses but i do not think this has been a good year. i just hope that next year will be better. i feel like i am almost at the bottom of something, at the nadir of my life so far?

i am not writing this to alarm any of my friends. i won't do anything drastic. i remember writing a status on FB that had a few people worried. i am sorry about that. it was the state of my mind. but i won't do anything to harm myself (not that i can see i do that right now). i promise at least not in 2009. ok that did not come out right. 

anyway, i guess now that i have FB to give semi-regular updates of my moods and life, i am not likely to write blog like this. so there will be less entries here. and hopefully next time i write here, i will have more interesting things to say than sounding depressed. life should be good but i am just not finding it right now. i hope i will get out of this...

changes might come next year. let's wait and see what my next year in review will be like...