a few friends told me they are worreid about me after reading my blog. i have to thank them for caring. re-reading the recent blog entries, i realized they are pretty grim looking. i sounded like i am on the verge of suicide. sorry to alarm anyone out there. it's not all sadness in my world. there are happy times and there are sad times. unfortunately, sadness drives me to write on my blog more than happiness. i guess misery likes company. it's easier to vent and it does feel better once you release some of the negative thoughts that have been accummulating in your mind. like i said before, i really should learn to be more sensitive to others. sorry again to make you worried, friends. i do have friends. in fact, i am fortunate to have many friends. at times, i just feel alone. but it's not your fault. it's me, still learning to trust, and to open up. this blog is a tool. but you might notice i am being very vague on many things. purposely sometimes. sometimes just being my old secretive self.

 

life always has its ups and downs. i am lucky to have people who worry about me during my down times. it's very nice to know there are people who care about me. if i die suddenly, maybe there might even be some people who might say some nice things about me...ok, i am getting to be too morbid (again!)

 

once again, thank you for being a friend. i am happy now because i have people who care about me.